Caillte sa tSeapáin

Caillte sa tSeapáin - Perdido no Japão

Sounds, scissors, smells, sighs, signs,
papers, peppers, pictures, paintings,
moments, memories, mirages,
colours, whispers, feelings,
silence...
We're running, through a whirlwind of
Illusions and images and imitations and lies; chaos is our surname,
when torment is busy with pandemonium.
Trying, searching, hoping to find a way to
see the lights through the sorrows,
afraid to fall, tied to an unbreakable vow of stay strong,
don't matter what happen, don't matter how much it hurt....
Everything is noisy, but my mind keep silent,
and I hate all this vacuum, confusing all my senses & thoughts.
The uncontrollable uncertainty is excruciating, making my thoughts ruin my reasoning of who I'm, who I want to be, what I want to do of my life.
Who I'm?
Where I'm?
What I do?
What can I do?
Am I a villain or a hero?
Am I positive or negative?
Am I black or white? Or purple? Or green or yellow or blue?
Am I the past? Present? Future?
Am I love? Hate? Longing? Forgetfulness?
Am I here? Or here is a dream?
What I'm in this world?
I don't know... And don't knowing the answer, makes me even more
anxious, distressed, insecure, terrified.
The future is right in front of me, but I can't see it in fact;
all the things around is blurred, cloudy, uncertain.
Should I stay or should I leave? Burn or frozen?
Questions, questions, questions...
Many voices to listen, but none are clear.
'Just keep breathing....' he says.
Then I breathe... And I try a little more.
I breathe, and remain.
The sun will born tomorrow, shadows aren't endless,
light will come back, and I'll remain complete.
No one will broke me.
No one will despise me.
And no one will stop me of loving myself.
I'll be infinite... And that's all that matter.






Y.
22:05hs.
14/11/2019.